Thursday, May 29, 2008
thing's have started to change,
and it came too abruptly.
allow me to protect the case, so as not to allow the whole thing to be destroyed.
but if time/anything permits, i will let it to be destroyed.
no worries.
im missing the warmth dearly.
Yi Jun blogged at 10:49 PM
Monday, May 12, 2008
[11.10pm]
it's a day when mummy didnt cook, and ive got the bloody time to have a meal with frend.
i miss amksians so much, so f much.
i tried msging people arnd me.
i msg arnd 8 to 9 people, but all either at home, or on the way home.
i was like the more i msg, the more disappointed i got.
i was so disappointed until i teared in the public, sitting down alone with Mr Bean's pancakes.
i so much wanted to break away from the cooking world,
and just sit down to have a proper meal with amkss people.
i so f miss you all like shit.
it was so so hard to get a time out of my busy work&study schedule, even it's for a proper meal with you all.
so uneasily i got a chance, but no one was able to eat with me.
im tired okay, like f tired inside out.
breaking down seems to be a normal thing now and then.
sometimes just feels like giving up, but i know i cant.
and it's definitely not the yi jun last time!
i dont give up easily last time, but why now.
ive got so much to express, and so much to hide inside.
until im so tired, and dont feel like saying out anymore.
i admit i love the study&work im involved in.
but the passion is not enough, the hardwork is not enough either to make you happy.
i tried so hard to make everyone happy, i tried so hard to perfect it.
i tried so hard to make the best out of everything i did.
but trying so hard doesnt pay you know.
i rly dno what i can do to improve everything.
and i hate to have a fucking lousy memory.
everytime before i go to work, it's never a smile, never.
until recently i rly couldnt help it, i just keep breaking down everytime before i went to work.
mummy saw it 2 days ago before i went out of the house,
wanted to share with her what happen so much, but i cant talk tht time.
im so scared tht once i talk, i will just burst into tears like a crybaby.
but i know she's alwaes there, thanks mummy.
i wna thank byy for staying there to hear whatever i alwaes have to say.
thank you for standing my temper when im so f down and so on.
i know maybe i alwaes facing the same problems, or different ones.
but you're still there to listen and encourage me no matter what.
although sometimes the encouraging words doesnt work on me this kinda person,
i still appreciate whatever you've said & done.
thank you so much, really.
the other reason why i share with you this much is also becus we're on the same line,
guess you can understand better too.
just thank you okay.
i dno what will happen if you aint there to listen tom me 24/7 about the kitchen life & problems im facing.
i walked home with blasting music.
too much to think and handle.
until now i dno wtf am i thinking.
i thought it would be a great day to have a meal with my frend.
but turned out otherwise.
on my way home ystd i saw LYC aka Liu Yong Cheng.
and so coincidentally we both wore red!
it has been arnd 6 years we didnt meet and talk.
and tht moment i feel like so happy from the deep inside you know.
to see a long time frend, saying Hi and smile, chat for a while and off we went to the diff place.
but tht minutes of smile + chat just makes my day like heavenly.
it reminded me of days ago i saw qingkang at mrt!
i have no hesitation at all to tap him and say hi.
i felt so glad and relax tht time.
god knows how much i miss you guys people.
not letting out my TP dearest!
the siao C176, i still miss you guys k!
and jeremy ho, zhi, viknesh..
the seah street people, i just wna hug you all.
picutres..
it was totally 'The Bread' week.
i ate 6 of them, really nice.
but the next day we did bread agn, and i almost vomitted.
was sick for one whole week tht time.
all the showering of love coming in..
Chef Macdonald bought me Liang Teh & sweets just in case liang teh too bitter.!
on the same day, the night C K from my sch was nice to make Plum Honey Water for me.
Sent to me in warm condition at 12+am midnight tgt with Eugene.
Recently colleague pei ru do liang teh for all, dish washer auntie made crysanthymum tea for all,
and Kelvin from bakery made Luo Han Guo liang teh esp for me.
i never had so many liang teh from different people before, i swear i was very touched.
this is where we normally eat, at the Patio aka Canteen.
but if we're lucky enough, we will be treated like queens or kings at the Restaurant Trainings by the culinary students.
like this!
desserts! (:
Another Theme.
it's fine dining over there, so yup.
we're having this kinda thing in school.
Restaurant Training for The Paedophilia, the suit of the day.
this is the bar tender mocktail drink of the day, named: Apologize.
it was graded, but forgot how much marks he got.
it was served to everyone who came to the restaurant to eat, but was made for me.
i didnt say you're forgiven yet k!
on my way to work, this is the Maybank building.
it looks like some kind of drama, those gun drama.
ms kee, doraemon from her.
after work, first time got people help me massage legs cus he claimed tht im tired after work.
and indeed i was.
but i felt more heart warming when he helped me massge.
went to Hong Xing Restaurant to have DimSum with my family last 2 sundays ago.
i will wear dress whenever i can,
wearing pants when work and to schools make it so boring.
so dressing up is an award for myself after work.
damn damn damn alot people queuing, it was my first time there.
but actually their food are so so to me and my family only.
didnt know why got so many ppl queuing!
this is the first part of the Q..
second part..
there's third part, but so lazy to get out of there to take the picture..
but something ought to find out is their Da Bao,
it's freaking big!!!!!!!
first round of the dimsums we've ordered.
not tht fabulous actually.
C K gave me a rose during one of my school days and i got a shock.
hahaha, but it was very nice of him though(:
sorry didnt go for dinner with you and eugene, soon k! (:
(chef mac was trying to be funny to put his nametag under tht rose, hahah.)
FHA party, we're supposed to make tht happen.
but well, didnt go so well i heard, and see.
it was my first time eating a whole cake!
so i just ate the middle part of the slices, it made me feel a sense of achievement having to eat the middle.
LOL.
it will be thrown away after the chocolate buffet enw, just a waste.
it's untouched lor.
i bought this top ^^
what we did in school..
veron & me! (:
the closest to me in class.
one of my favourite! (:
Chocolate Seasalt Cookies.
little fun with the flour when we doing cookies.
it's the grand opening ceremony for the Singapore Flyers!
PLC & me was crossing over to clarke quay and saw alot of fireworks.
but when i took out my phone to take a pic, no more!
goddddddddddddddddddddd.
how nice if this picture is taken tgt with the fireworks.
this is the surprise me, jiamin & nicholas did for qiaoyu's 18th birthday.
so sweet right.
and lastly,
HAPPPPY TWENTY FIRST MASTER CHEF IMMANUEL(:
hope you love the surprise me & pang got for you.
more pictures next time.
sorry for the spider web.
i need a fucking break.
or you can phrase it in another way: I'm Weak.
i dundare to have a second thought.
the pay is tooo big.
Yi Jun blogged at 11:13 PM
