Tuesday, April 07, 2009
about my current mood and feelings..
Sometimes, I cant deny..
that I really hope to be like a normal teenager girl.
Not having much stress, leading a pretty normal educational life.
At the age of 18, I'm studying in either a JC or Polytechnic.
Because I yearn for something badly that can only found in JCs and Polys..
Definitely you could find that during your Secondary School Days..
I believe everyone's gone through that.
few pictures that I'm so envy of..
After looking at those pictures, you may know what's the X factor I wish to have..
credit to CindyPhua.. Victoria JC.
credit to Cheryl Phua.. Ngee Ann Poly.
Credit to our past..
you get where am I driving at?
I really yearn to be in their shoes, right now, at this moment..
That's what I call..
Bonding.
That part of me havent grow up, yet..
Pardon me.
one of the group projects in TP days..
this whole model was done by myself overnight.. Love.
times when I went NgeeAnn clash lectures with Jiamin..
My Chart..
That's Life..
Having to hold on to something, you have to give something up.
But I've got to admit, everything will Not be like how it is now if I was a JC or Poly girl.
I wouldnt have known Baby..
I wouldnt have known CK & Eugene korkor..
I wouldnt have known Peiru, Magdelene, JiaShin.. All my Lovers in Fullerton.
I wouldnt have known Veron, wouldnt know LingLing, Imm and all.
I wouldnt grow up faster, and wouldnt see more than what a JC girl sees.
And..
I wouldnt be who I am now..
It's a pity that I didnt study hard enough,
and get into a good poly course..
But then again,
I wouldnt have known JoelNeo, one of the close friends I've made in my life.
I wouldnt have known Michael, Kenvin, Leighton, Qinyi, and my fellow TP mates.
Although I feel so very, extremely, desperate for all the class bondings & crazy moments that I've missed as a teenager.
I'm equally glad that I've met so many people in my life when I started my path towards pastry & baking arts.
And definitely grown up alot.. that sometimes I'm having difficulty to breath, struggling.
Too much for me to take sometimes..
And I just like to keep it to myself.
But I know even how much & how stressful it is, I have to take it.
Because whatever that comes my way, I know I have to cross it, somehow, someway.
That's life.
Don't worry, I didnt regret taking this path..
It's an emo day..
Sorry guys, have been bombing my blog with all the emo post.
It'll be rainbow soon alright, I promise! (:
